I go by the name CHRESTELLA
turning 17 on 18/11. Indonesian. constantly moving.
Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius & it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
- marilyn monroe
hit counters since 3/18/2009
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lonely soul in a lonely night
As I get older, the more trouble there'll be, the more miserable life gets, and nothing will ever go my way. when every single thing in life pulls me down and nothing is left to pull myself back up. when I'll always be this villain for people do not know the truth, but when the truth be told, the humiliation takes over. Through the billion of friends out there or even the few that you consider best friends, no one truly cares. They're busy taking sides, having their own fun, because people just tend to make new friends and forget old ones or maybe a selfless human being just simply doesn't matter.
what've i done that lead me to this state. wish I could just let things out for once. when i confide, people judge me. i just wanna be loved. for once, feel a sincere one. others think i'm having fun, others think i'm doing fine. when truly, i'm such a lonely soul.
Since the day is approaching fast, I wish god could just grant me my wish. I really do not wish for anything that could simply be bought by money because money can't buy me happiness, and I just truly want to be happy even though i know happiness doesn't exist. please bring me back to life in another 20 days. i'm sick of being sick, whatever defines sick.
- Forever is composed of nows ♥
lonely soul in a lonely night
As I get older, the more trouble there'll be, the more miserable life gets, and nothing will ever go my way. when every single thing in life pulls me down and nothing is left to pull myself back up. when I'll always be this villain for people do not know the truth, but when the truth be told, the humiliation takes over. Through the billion of friends out there or even the few that you consider best friends, no one truly cares. They're busy taking sides, having their own fun, because people just tend to make new friends and forget old ones or maybe a selfless human being just simply doesn't matter.
what've i done that lead me to this state. wish I could just let things out for once. when i confide, people judge me. i just wanna be loved. for once, feel a sincere one. others think i'm having fun, others think i'm doing fine. when truly, i'm such a lonely soul.
Since the day is approaching fast, I wish god could just grant me my wish. I really do not wish for anything that could simply be bought by money because money can't buy me happiness, and I just truly want to be happy even though i know happiness doesn't exist. please bring me back to life in another 20 days. i'm sick of being sick, whatever defines sick.
