I go by the name CHRESTELLA
turning 17 on 18/11. Indonesian. constantly moving.
Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius & it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
- marilyn monroe
hit counters since 3/18/2009
et cetera
strength, to infinity & beyond.
I've come a long way to get through twenty eleven & here's another disaster to fuck my first few weeks of twenty twelve? but i wouldn't call it a disaster either, more like a blessing. even though, sadly, being considerate and caring as a friend is sometimes a detestable thing. that's why i will leave it all behind, after all I had not done anything wrong. why should I be stuck in misery when I could break free from this anchor that's pulling me down, what was I thinking to even consider in the first place. if that's considered dumb then I would gladly agree, I was dumb enough to even consider and thankfully, smart enough to leave. because strangely, no matter how much hatred i kept inside, that many times i felt like a ticking time bomb, no matter how betrayed i feel, it still feels like the most righteous decision i have ever made, the one with no regrets. I may starve, I may die in boredom but my happiness and level of satisfaction is beyond words. it feels like this burdensome weight is lifted off from my shoulder. in other words, hatred gives me strength. after all, change is constant and it's always for the better. taking this leap of faith might just be another blessing in disguise.
- Forever is composed of nows ♥
strength, to infinity & beyond.
I've come a long way to get through twenty eleven & here's another disaster to fuck my first few weeks of twenty twelve? but i wouldn't call it a disaster either, more like a blessing. even though, sadly, being considerate and caring as a friend is sometimes a detestable thing. that's why i will leave it all behind, after all I had not done anything wrong. why should I be stuck in misery when I could break free from this anchor that's pulling me down, what was I thinking to even consider in the first place. if that's considered dumb then I would gladly agree, I was dumb enough to even consider and thankfully, smart enough to leave. because strangely, no matter how much hatred i kept inside, that many times i felt like a ticking time bomb, no matter how betrayed i feel, it still feels like the most righteous decision i have ever made, the one with no regrets. I may starve, I may die in boredom but my happiness and level of satisfaction is beyond words. it feels like this burdensome weight is lifted off from my shoulder. in other words, hatred gives me strength. after all, change is constant and it's always for the better. taking this leap of faith might just be another blessing in disguise.
