I go by the name CHRESTELLA
turning 17 on 18/11. Indonesian. constantly moving.
Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius & it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
- marilyn monroe
hit counters since 3/18/2009
et cetera
'cause i'm no superman
people doesn't understand what your scar is about. It is sad that the ones you thought you could depend on would finally turn their back on you in the end. When they exactly knew what is wrong, but chose to leave you at that state. I am sad not because of everything that is going on is against my will but because i'm of no help, no friends and i wish someone would lend me a strong hand to pull me up from this mess that I can't even describe. There is no one that I could come crying to, I am scared that people will use my weaknesses against me, which is, in the end, what always happen. I fight it, but it's always stronger than me.
if i could be a superman, i'd fly you to the stars and back again.
but i can only write this song and tell you that i'm not that strong.
'cause i'm no superman, i hope you like me as i am.
- Forever is composed of nows ♥
what it takes, to be loved.
maybe, you're not afraid to love. maybe, you're just afraid of not being loved.
mix feelings much. in the end, you'll come to realize who'll prolly be there, who left, who stays just for the fun. then there are those who like to make things worse just for their enjoyment and also the many people, who just want to know but don't give a fuck. things may seem like they go according to how your brain wants them to at times, though sometimes your heart may wish for a whole different thing. but you also come to realize that may be it is meant to be this way, though we're very much gambling with our own feelings. it's prolly best to not budge it and see how things go. as horrible as things may seem right now, do not lose hope of wishing things will be better. as they always say, things may come to those who wait. it is the key to the many more beautiful things that will happen, hopefully, soon.
- Forever is composed of nows ♥
emotionless, the right way to be.
being happy is never healthy, it's a matter of time till the free fall comes and diminishes you to the tiniest thing you could ever imagine. That's probably the reason why I never truly embrace happiness, to save myself from the unforeseen big shit, to be my own pre-happening safety net. According to newton's law, "to every action, there is an equal & opposite reaction." i guess the saddest thing would be to keep questioning myself of these unfortunate daily happenings while it frustrates me for not having the heart to hurt nor having the heart to love. oh well, that prolly sums up what i am now.
- Forever is composed of nows ♥
'cause i'm no superman
people doesn't understand what your scar is about. It is sad that the ones you thought you could depend on would finally turn their back on you in the end. When they exactly knew what is wrong, but chose to leave you at that state. I am sad not because of everything that is going on is against my will but because i'm of no help, no friends and i wish someone would lend me a strong hand to pull me up from this mess that I can't even describe. There is no one that I could come crying to, I am scared that people will use my weaknesses against me, which is, in the end, what always happen. I fight it, but it's always stronger than me.
if i could be a superman, i'd fly you to the stars and back again.
but i can only write this song and tell you that i'm not that strong.
'cause i'm no superman, i hope you like me as i am.
- Forever is composed of nows ♥
what it takes, to be loved.
maybe, you're not afraid to love. maybe, you're just afraid of not being loved.
mix feelings much. in the end, you'll come to realize who'll prolly be there, who left, who stays just for the fun. then there are those who like to make things worse just for their enjoyment and also the many people, who just want to know but don't give a fuck. things may seem like they go according to how your brain wants them to at times, though sometimes your heart may wish for a whole different thing. but you also come to realize that may be it is meant to be this way, though we're very much gambling with our own feelings. it's prolly best to not budge it and see how things go. as horrible as things may seem right now, do not lose hope of wishing things will be better. as they always say, things may come to those who wait. it is the key to the many more beautiful things that will happen, hopefully, soon.
- Forever is composed of nows ♥
emotionless, the right way to be.
being happy is never healthy, it's a matter of time till the free fall comes and diminishes you to the tiniest thing you could ever imagine. That's probably the reason why I never truly embrace happiness, to save myself from the unforeseen big shit, to be my own pre-happening safety net. According to newton's law, "to every action, there is an equal & opposite reaction." i guess the saddest thing would be to keep questioning myself of these unfortunate daily happenings while it frustrates me for not having the heart to hurt nor having the heart to love. oh well, that prolly sums up what i am now.
